There are some days that it seems like you must have a breaking point before you can move forward. I wonder why this is.
Yesterday was that day for me. I cried all day. I was just a basket case! It was not a pretty site!
After I got it all talked out, and reassurance from Tim, that things are going to be fine - I relaxed. I also realized a very important thing......I was trying to do it all my self! My focus should have been on God and what He is doing for me and what He can do for me. Boy did I have it all wrong!
God was really showing me some things yesterday and the biggest was that I was not relying on Him! WOW!
I'm so sorry Lord for not trusting in you! For relying on my own selfish deeds and not trusting in you! Thank you for humbling me yesterday and bringing out of the pit of self pity and self doubt that was so rampant in my life yesterday! I need you! I want you!
Thanks also to Tim for being the best husband a woman could ever wish for! I love you sweety! As I said earlier today, there have only been a handful of days in our 15 years of marriage that were like yesterday. We are so blessed!
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Monday, September 3, 2007
What a wonderful weekend!
For "Labor Day" we have done very little laboring this weekend! What a treat!
Friday night we went to an Indian's Baseball game. I thought this was my first one but my BF pointed out that we went with the hubby's when we were pregnant! So it has only been 9-10 years! It was a great night! The weather was perfect - free tickets - great company - what more could you ask for?
Saturday - college football! Tim's teams: ND lost, NE won; Mine: UT lost. Overall it was still a great day! The family took a bike ride to Ellis Park - round trip is about 5 miles. It was hard (for me) but I did it!
Sunday - wonderful worship at church. The boys went fishing at a friends house. Tim and Emma took a nap - I got some quality quiet time! Tim and I then curled up and watched a movie.
Monday - Tim and Emma are currently out at Lowe's buying materials to build a birdhouse. While the kids and Tim are doing that, I get to go grocery shopping. I hate to grocery shop but I get to go alone - woohoo!
What does the rest of the day hold in store for us? Doesn't matter - been wonderful!
Hope you all have enjoyed your weekend and had some great family time!
Friday night we went to an Indian's Baseball game. I thought this was my first one but my BF pointed out that we went with the hubby's when we were pregnant! So it has only been 9-10 years! It was a great night! The weather was perfect - free tickets - great company - what more could you ask for?
Saturday - college football! Tim's teams: ND lost, NE won; Mine: UT lost. Overall it was still a great day! The family took a bike ride to Ellis Park - round trip is about 5 miles. It was hard (for me) but I did it!
Sunday - wonderful worship at church. The boys went fishing at a friends house. Tim and Emma took a nap - I got some quality quiet time! Tim and I then curled up and watched a movie.
Monday - Tim and Emma are currently out at Lowe's buying materials to build a birdhouse. While the kids and Tim are doing that, I get to go grocery shopping. I hate to grocery shop but I get to go alone - woohoo!
What does the rest of the day hold in store for us? Doesn't matter - been wonderful!
Hope you all have enjoyed your weekend and had some great family time!
Sunday, September 2, 2007
"Mom, what's gay?"
On Wednesday night Christian and I were in the car driving home from church. He had tried out for the praise team in the elementary worship department (did a good job if I do say so myself).
Tim's car has this defect that the radio station will change when the car is turned off. It doesn't happen every time but many times. We had been listening to either Radio Disney or K-Love on the way to church. When we got back in the car, talk radio was on. Before I had a chance to change the channel the news announcer said, "Senator Craig says he is not gay."
switch channel
From the backseat, "Mom, what's gay?"
GULP!
Me: "Do you really want to know?" (hoping he wouldn't but glad that he would actually ask me when he didn't know something.)
"yep"
GULP! Where's Tim during all this??????
Me: "Many years ago gay used to mean 'happy' but in more recent times, people use it to talk about homosexual people. Do you know what homosexual means?"
"nope"
Me: "You sure you really want to know?"
"yep"
Me: "Homosexual means when boys have romantic feelings for boys and girls have romantic feelings girls." (thinking to myself am I doing this right?)
"gross" (of course this coming from the boy who still thinks girls are 'gross')
sigh of relief
Me: "People tend to call boy homosexuals gay and girl homosexuals lesbians. Don't ask me why because I really don't know."
Me: "Anymore questions?" (did I really just ask that?)
"nope"
GULP! (thank goodness!)
This really wasn't the talk I thought I would have with my 9 year old son on the way home from the church building! It makes me very aware that the "facts of life" talk isn't really that far behind. I am really praying that Tim is around for that discussion. I guess I really need to start preparing for what I am going to say.
Tim's car has this defect that the radio station will change when the car is turned off. It doesn't happen every time but many times. We had been listening to either Radio Disney or K-Love on the way to church. When we got back in the car, talk radio was on. Before I had a chance to change the channel the news announcer said, "Senator Craig says he is not gay."
switch channel
From the backseat, "Mom, what's gay?"
GULP!
Me: "Do you really want to know?" (hoping he wouldn't but glad that he would actually ask me when he didn't know something.)
"yep"
GULP! Where's Tim during all this??????
Me: "Many years ago gay used to mean 'happy' but in more recent times, people use it to talk about homosexual people. Do you know what homosexual means?"
"nope"
Me: "You sure you really want to know?"
"yep"
Me: "Homosexual means when boys have romantic feelings for boys and girls have romantic feelings girls." (thinking to myself am I doing this right?)
"gross" (of course this coming from the boy who still thinks girls are 'gross')
sigh of relief
Me: "People tend to call boy homosexuals gay and girl homosexuals lesbians. Don't ask me why because I really don't know."
Me: "Anymore questions?" (did I really just ask that?)
"nope"
GULP! (thank goodness!)
This really wasn't the talk I thought I would have with my 9 year old son on the way home from the church building! It makes me very aware that the "facts of life" talk isn't really that far behind. I am really praying that Tim is around for that discussion. I guess I really need to start preparing for what I am going to say.
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